Catching up to real time; Week Seven is September 12-18. Note to self: When climbing the Prospect Park stone staircase to the manmade lake overlook the second and third weeks in September, wear a sturdy hat, if not a helmet. Squirrel-bomb acorns threaten serious head-beaning. No joke.
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My foot hurts like hell. On Saturday, the end of Week Six, I bought a new pair of Brooks Defyance at JackRabbit in Park Slope, Brooklyn. When I examined the old pair, the sole seemed to be holding up well, except for a spot on the left shoe, which had worn down to a thinnish layer where on the ball of my foot a callus had hardened. I’d been wearing the Brooks brand for years, usually for over a year before replacing them. But these I’d just purchased in April, a few weeks before the Pittsburgh Marathon. Perhaps, I thought, there was something wrong.
Running for Your Life: Week Six
Finally, temps are in the 70s. Payback for those punishing August runs. The first day, Sunday, before my shift at the New York Post, I shoot for an hour, five minutes: 1:05. My lucky number, and a seven interval up and down the stone step stairway to the overlook of the manmade lake in Prospect Park. When I catch my second wind, halfway through the staircase interval, I’m Cameron’s Avatar, on Labor Day weekend 2010, and I feel my leg like it was before my blood clot. Like a 20-year-old, with a memory of one.
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The bellmen had the best jobs and the hearts of the prettiest maids. Front line with the tips, big-forehead handsome and beefy. Career hotel keepers held the manager posts at Chateau Lake Louise, an historic Canadian Pacific Railroad hotel, a mansion on a glacial blue lake, during the summer of 1976, but college students flocked there to fill the menial ones.
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The bellmen had the best jobs and the hearts of the prettiest maids. Front line with the tips, big-forehead handsome and beefy. Career hotel keepers held the manager posts at Chateau Lake Louise, an historic Canadian Pacific Railroad hotel, a mansion on a glacial blue lake, during the summer of 1976, but college students flocked there to fill the menial ones.
Running for Your Life: Week Five
It’s ghastly hot and humid, the forecast is calling for a brutal week, when I have the dream:
I’m at a place of supreme importance, although I’m not sure exactly where. I’ve set aside an ice-cold bottle of Champagne for toasting the event in which high performance is required. I’m sitting in what must be a dressing room next to a famous person (athlete?) who also has a bottle of Champagne. Both bottles are morphed into the shape of a leg and a foot; large, magnum-size.
I put on socks and lace up my skates. I have packed very carefully for the journey to this place, but have forgotten, inexplicably, to pack my hockey gear. I think to put on my hockey pants, but then see that I’ve left them at home. Briefly, I think I can dash to Brooklyn and get them, or wing it in some other fashion, but immediately reject the idea as absurd.
Then, in a panic, I wake up. It is 8:15, on Sunday, Week Five, half-way to the marathon.
I’m at a place of supreme importance, although I’m not sure exactly where. I’ve set aside an ice-cold bottle of Champagne for toasting the event in which high performance is required. I’m sitting in what must be a dressing room next to a famous person (athlete?) who also has a bottle of Champagne. Both bottles are morphed into the shape of a leg and a foot; large, magnum-size.
I put on socks and lace up my skates. I have packed very carefully for the journey to this place, but have forgotten, inexplicably, to pack my hockey gear. I think to put on my hockey pants, but then see that I’ve left them at home. Briefly, I think I can dash to Brooklyn and get them, or wing it in some other fashion, but immediately reject the idea as absurd.
Then, in a panic, I wake up. It is 8:15, on Sunday, Week Five, half-way to the marathon.
Running for Your Life: Week Four
We don’t really know why Don Draper starts keeping a journal. He’s gotta be in his early 40s now, and as a typical guy in the Sixties, particularly THAT type of guy, the “Mad Men” star would never do such a thing. No, Draper’s journal-keeping is a story-driven anachronism for sophisticated watchers in late 2010 so that their hero will give voice to his innermost thoughts. He says, “I feel like a girl” keeping a diary. But serious watchers of the best show on TV don’t judge it for taking such an historical license; rather, we are ready to learn, not only what we see from the behavior of this complicated, creative survivor, but from his deepest thoughts, which can best come from keeping a journal.
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I’ve been keeping a regular journal since 1983. Seven years after I started running. In the past year, I’ve given a lot of thought to the years that I was running when I wasn’t keeping a journal. Like Draper’s journal, the practice serves as a critical first draft of understanding – and dipping into it, you can best connect the dots to earlier times. As I said earlier in this blog, in a long life we think of ourselves as many distinct people as we pass through our various changes. And as poet Stanley Kunitz, who died at 101 in 2006, said in a poem late in his life, “I am not yet done with my changes.”
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I was in Nicaragua in 1985 when I wrote: “Running is not an excuse for abject solitariness – but for real enjoyment. The sweat pours down my forehead. My left leg, of course, throbs with the pain of too much pounding. But the second wind comes along, and the leg . . . almost in concert . . . begins to loosen, the pace is now regular and forever does not seem such a long time. Home and the final stretch. I’ve managed to run another 10 miles.”
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Runners don’t need to start a journal. But I find journal-keeping helps. Especially on long runs.
For Week Four I need to do a long run. On Tuesday, the forecast is for a break in the heat and humidity, cool, a bit of rain. The day before I’m in the park for a typical one-hour training run, up the steps of the stone staircase to amp up the cardio. Once again, I don’t pay attention to how many miles I’m doing, rather it is all about the pace. If I can keep my ’thon pace, which is in the 8 minute, 30 second range, I’m pushing myself hard enough to reach my goal: a 3:45 marathon in October and a shot at Boston in April.
People ask me what I think about when I’m running. For me, since June 1983, when I left for a year’s trip across America, and on to Tahiti, New Zealand, Australia, Mexico and Cuba, running and writing have been intimately linked. I don’t stop to take notes, but I keep my mind active, I think of stories that I want to tell, details I have to write down when I get home.
On Tuesday of Week Four, I decide to run to Green-Wood Cemetery. M told me she’d read somewhere that at one time Green-Wood Cemetery in Brooklyn was the number two tourist attraction in the state behind Niagara Falls. Bigger than the Statue of Liberty and the Brooklyn Bridge. Realtors are taking to calling the district Greenwood Heights. Still, although I’ve lived in the borough for almost twenty years, I’ve never gone to the cemetery.
Soon, I’m making my way toward the Gothic entrance. Somewhere a sign reads: Established 1838. And another one: K9 Patrol and 24-hour armed guard, who must be the guy who is getting up and out of his seat as I approach. I’ve run in cemeteries: a namesake one in my hometown of Owen Sound, Ontario, and Hollywood Cemetery in Richmond, Va., where I met my wife (in the city, not the cemetery!), and in Ireland, on two separate trips. The guard is shooing me away, looking like he could go for his gun, but I keep coming, indicate with my hands that I want to talk.
“Can’t I go inside,” I say.
The guard shakes his head. “No. This is a cemetery, not a park.”
That seems the final word, so onward. Finally, a bit of cool rain. I’m sure, I think, my spirits picking up, I can get in a two-hour run.
But sadly, not inside. A notice board by the entrance seems to suggest you have to arrange for a tour to see the rolling hills, the botanic garden-like plantings and myriad monuments.
Outside, though, are urban treasures to be seen in the hourlong run skirting the perimeter, with few views of names of the headstones themselves (except for a patch along 20th Street, between Seventh and Eighth avenues): the Jackie Gleason depot that I imagine is little changed from “The Honeymooners” and Dodgers time, a burned out car along Gautier Way, Shannon Florist along Fort Hamilton Parkway, where Spanish-speaking workers huddle, waiting for a work truck.
Then, the pleasures of Windsor Terrace, before I get to Prospect Park and, yes, manage twice around, even getting into the woods, and its ground-worn trails. And when I arrive at home, after gobbling down a sheath of electrolyte cubes, and downing a bottle of cold tap water, I take out my journal and write: Jackie Gleason depot, the Green-Wood security standoff, a thread of a park off Sixth Avenue and the Prospect Expressway, named after Detective Joseph Mayrose (1949-1989), a beloved Bay Ridge cop. And I make special note of Our Lady’s Field, the smallest baseball diamond I have ever seen, a field of dreams wedged in the center of a borough that I’m seeing in a way I never have before.
Next: Running for Your Life: Week Five
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I’ve been keeping a regular journal since 1983. Seven years after I started running. In the past year, I’ve given a lot of thought to the years that I was running when I wasn’t keeping a journal. Like Draper’s journal, the practice serves as a critical first draft of understanding – and dipping into it, you can best connect the dots to earlier times. As I said earlier in this blog, in a long life we think of ourselves as many distinct people as we pass through our various changes. And as poet Stanley Kunitz, who died at 101 in 2006, said in a poem late in his life, “I am not yet done with my changes.”
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I was in Nicaragua in 1985 when I wrote: “Running is not an excuse for abject solitariness – but for real enjoyment. The sweat pours down my forehead. My left leg, of course, throbs with the pain of too much pounding. But the second wind comes along, and the leg . . . almost in concert . . . begins to loosen, the pace is now regular and forever does not seem such a long time. Home and the final stretch. I’ve managed to run another 10 miles.”
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Runners don’t need to start a journal. But I find journal-keeping helps. Especially on long runs.
For Week Four I need to do a long run. On Tuesday, the forecast is for a break in the heat and humidity, cool, a bit of rain. The day before I’m in the park for a typical one-hour training run, up the steps of the stone staircase to amp up the cardio. Once again, I don’t pay attention to how many miles I’m doing, rather it is all about the pace. If I can keep my ’thon pace, which is in the 8 minute, 30 second range, I’m pushing myself hard enough to reach my goal: a 3:45 marathon in October and a shot at Boston in April.
People ask me what I think about when I’m running. For me, since June 1983, when I left for a year’s trip across America, and on to Tahiti, New Zealand, Australia, Mexico and Cuba, running and writing have been intimately linked. I don’t stop to take notes, but I keep my mind active, I think of stories that I want to tell, details I have to write down when I get home.
On Tuesday of Week Four, I decide to run to Green-Wood Cemetery. M told me she’d read somewhere that at one time Green-Wood Cemetery in Brooklyn was the number two tourist attraction in the state behind Niagara Falls. Bigger than the Statue of Liberty and the Brooklyn Bridge. Realtors are taking to calling the district Greenwood Heights. Still, although I’ve lived in the borough for almost twenty years, I’ve never gone to the cemetery.
Soon, I’m making my way toward the Gothic entrance. Somewhere a sign reads: Established 1838. And another one: K9 Patrol and 24-hour armed guard, who must be the guy who is getting up and out of his seat as I approach. I’ve run in cemeteries: a namesake one in my hometown of Owen Sound, Ontario, and Hollywood Cemetery in Richmond, Va., where I met my wife (in the city, not the cemetery!), and in Ireland, on two separate trips. The guard is shooing me away, looking like he could go for his gun, but I keep coming, indicate with my hands that I want to talk.
“Can’t I go inside,” I say.
The guard shakes his head. “No. This is a cemetery, not a park.”
That seems the final word, so onward. Finally, a bit of cool rain. I’m sure, I think, my spirits picking up, I can get in a two-hour run.
But sadly, not inside. A notice board by the entrance seems to suggest you have to arrange for a tour to see the rolling hills, the botanic garden-like plantings and myriad monuments.
Outside, though, are urban treasures to be seen in the hourlong run skirting the perimeter, with few views of names of the headstones themselves (except for a patch along 20th Street, between Seventh and Eighth avenues): the Jackie Gleason depot that I imagine is little changed from “The Honeymooners” and Dodgers time, a burned out car along Gautier Way, Shannon Florist along Fort Hamilton Parkway, where Spanish-speaking workers huddle, waiting for a work truck.
Then, the pleasures of Windsor Terrace, before I get to Prospect Park and, yes, manage twice around, even getting into the woods, and its ground-worn trails. And when I arrive at home, after gobbling down a sheath of electrolyte cubes, and downing a bottle of cold tap water, I take out my journal and write: Jackie Gleason depot, the Green-Wood security standoff, a thread of a park off Sixth Avenue and the Prospect Expressway, named after Detective Joseph Mayrose (1949-1989), a beloved Bay Ridge cop. And I make special note of Our Lady’s Field, the smallest baseball diamond I have ever seen, a field of dreams wedged in the center of a borough that I’m seeing in a way I never have before.
Next: Running for Your Life: Week Five
Running for Your Life: Rest Stop: Say No to Jobs
“Here in the U.S., culture is not that delicious panacea which we Europeans consume in a sacramental mental space and which has its own special columns in newspapers – and in people’s minds. Culture is space, speed, cinema, technology. This culture is authentic, if anything can be said to be authentic . . . . In America, cinema is true because it is the whole of space. The break between the two, the abstraction we deplore, does not exist: life is cinema.”
– Jean Baudrillard, “America,” 1989
Dear Steve Jobs:
I can anticipate your response to the Baudrillard. Point to the global sales of your iPods, and iPhones, and iTunes, and iTouches, and iPads, and soon to come, iTVs. When did Baudrillard publish “America” in America? 1989? In the digital age, that’s ancient history. If there is a “sacramental mental space” in Europe, then I’m not convinced – you’d say – that it subscribes to Apple Inc. What we couldn’t bring about with military or trade agreements, we’ve managed through technology and style. Indeed, space, speed, cinema and technology is culture. But not just in America. Everywhere.
Full disclosure: While an American citizen, I am culturally a Canadian. Not that makes me any way superior. I think the social philosopher George Grant has it right. Canadians live next to a society that is the very heart of modernity, and, given that nearly all have shown they think modernity is good ( ie, you, Steve Jobs, are god. Not God but small “g” god), then nothing essential distinguishes them from Americans, Grant wrote.
Suffice to say that I agree with you, Steve. And Baudrillard. And Grant. Where I part ways is the reaction to these truths. I wouldn’t be writing to you if I didn’t feel that we each had an epiphany as young men when we saw in use our first Walkmans. I admit I come to this conclusion in an unscientific way. But we are the same age: you turned 55 in February, I’ll be 55 in October. I’ll hazard a guess that your first glimpse of a Walkman – mine happened when I was 19 in 1975 (see Running Without Headphones) – was an important memory for you. But while my gut reaction was opposition, yours, undoubtedly, was opportunity.
Which is not to say that my reaction is any better than your reaction. And, as they say, money is a damn poor measure of success, but in America – and yes, Steve, in Europe and Canada too – it’s all we’ve got.
You’ve certainly got me there. What has my savage eye brought me? A lifetime of running, reading and writing. In your case, chasing those opportunities has led you to become an obscenely rich man, a god of our times.
Me, I put my inside out. You, you keep your inside in. Your mystique, your genius is in keeping us guessing as to what is coming next. Your eye’s on the prize: being the world’s social director. Leisure time is Jobs time. What did Curt Schilling say about aura and mystique? That “those are dancers in a nightclub.”
Steve, like Curt, I’m not buying it. The ear buds, the iFocus. It may not happen right away, but there’s a backlash brewing. Think Carthage, Rome, England. Empires don’t last forever. Discover slowness, choose analog, try technology-free weekends.
Steve, I know you will not answer me. But others will. That’s how it starts.
Next: Running for Your Life: Week Four
– Jean Baudrillard, “America,” 1989
Dear Steve Jobs:
I can anticipate your response to the Baudrillard. Point to the global sales of your iPods, and iPhones, and iTunes, and iTouches, and iPads, and soon to come, iTVs. When did Baudrillard publish “America” in America? 1989? In the digital age, that’s ancient history. If there is a “sacramental mental space” in Europe, then I’m not convinced – you’d say – that it subscribes to Apple Inc. What we couldn’t bring about with military or trade agreements, we’ve managed through technology and style. Indeed, space, speed, cinema and technology is culture. But not just in America. Everywhere.
Full disclosure: While an American citizen, I am culturally a Canadian. Not that makes me any way superior. I think the social philosopher George Grant has it right. Canadians live next to a society that is the very heart of modernity, and, given that nearly all have shown they think modernity is good ( ie, you, Steve Jobs, are god. Not God but small “g” god), then nothing essential distinguishes them from Americans, Grant wrote.
Suffice to say that I agree with you, Steve. And Baudrillard. And Grant. Where I part ways is the reaction to these truths. I wouldn’t be writing to you if I didn’t feel that we each had an epiphany as young men when we saw in use our first Walkmans. I admit I come to this conclusion in an unscientific way. But we are the same age: you turned 55 in February, I’ll be 55 in October. I’ll hazard a guess that your first glimpse of a Walkman – mine happened when I was 19 in 1975 (see Running Without Headphones) – was an important memory for you. But while my gut reaction was opposition, yours, undoubtedly, was opportunity.
Which is not to say that my reaction is any better than your reaction. And, as they say, money is a damn poor measure of success, but in America – and yes, Steve, in Europe and Canada too – it’s all we’ve got.
You’ve certainly got me there. What has my savage eye brought me? A lifetime of running, reading and writing. In your case, chasing those opportunities has led you to become an obscenely rich man, a god of our times.
Me, I put my inside out. You, you keep your inside in. Your mystique, your genius is in keeping us guessing as to what is coming next. Your eye’s on the prize: being the world’s social director. Leisure time is Jobs time. What did Curt Schilling say about aura and mystique? That “those are dancers in a nightclub.”
Steve, like Curt, I’m not buying it. The ear buds, the iFocus. It may not happen right away, but there’s a backlash brewing. Think Carthage, Rome, England. Empires don’t last forever. Discover slowness, choose analog, try technology-free weekends.
Steve, I know you will not answer me. But others will. That’s how it starts.
Next: Running for Your Life: Week Four
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